Tired Again And Feeling Guilty

I’m tired.  I’m always bloody tired.  This week we’ve walked miles (or so it seems).  We’ve been down country lanes, had a shopping marathon, been on the tourist trail in Liverpool, been to the gym, and just the general day to day business of getting about.  So, today I’m shattered.  I have no energy.  The worst of it is, I know that Steve is frustrated with me because I’m not leaping about, doing chores, rushing to make the place Pinterest worthy for the weekend.  The fact is, I simply cannot oblige.  He’s hoovering downstairs (huffing and puffing) and I’m hiding up here on the bed, blogging away.  I was in bed at 7:30 last night and asleep by 9 p.m. so no sleep deprivation.  I had a shit day with palpitations yesterday and really, I’m just glad that my heart is OK today.  Dr Abi says she is writing to my GP to see if I can come off the beta blocker.  I really hope it will help, but at the same time, I’m scared that a change in medication will aggravate the palpitations.  She suggested I could have an ablation (get the offending bit of my heart zapped) but that scares the living daylights out of me.  Sorry for the rant, but sometimes it just has to be said, and I feel I can’t keep whingeing to Steve about it.


10 thoughts on “Tired Again And Feeling Guilty

  1. Oh, Christine, so sorry to hear this. I completely understand your frustration and the bad days knock the right wind out of our sails. Perhaps your hubby struggles with the chronic part of heart disease — the fatigue and palpitations come and go, like other diseases symptoms come and go. Just be gentle with yourself! You go, go, go when you can, and must rest at other times. Sending a hug to you SCAD sista. Xoxo

  2. Hey Christine

    I am so sorry to hear you are feeling like this but you can’t help it with your heart problems so feeling guilty isn’t going to help. Thanks to a post you put up about coconut oil, the dog and I have been on that for a couple of months and she’s got a lovely glossy coat and I feel good as well. I know it’s not a cure all but it may help alleviate some of your tiredness? It’s got so many health properties including being excellent for stomach, kidney and protecting the brain and it might be worth thinking about. I’m actually not surprised you’re tired if you’ve done all that this week! Don’t despair, you’ve come a long way. Always around 24/7 these days if you fancy a change of scenary. Hope you pick up soon!

    Jacq xx

  3. Sorry to hear you’re not feeling so good, Christine. I’m sure Steve does understand really and doesn’t mean to show his frustration. Certainly, you mustn’t feel guilty about being ill, you wouldn’t be if you could help it!

  4. Read your post the other day and didn’t have time to comment, but just come back to leave you a virtual hug and support. I know how hard it must be for you and your family, but you just have to accept and go with your limitations. I’m sure your husband understands deep down, but probably feels frustrated by the situation. I know my husband gets like that sometimes #fibromyalgia.
    Thinking of you x

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